I had a dream this weekend. It kinda stuck with me. The details aren’t important at this time. But the thing that has really got me thinking is the persons involved. Most of them were persons that haven’t been actively in my life for a season or two. It troubled me because these people had been on my heart for a while. That made this dream all the more so uncomfortable. Now none of these persons have left my world because of disagreements or bad feelings. At least I don’t think so. But it made me realize AGAIN how much I miss them. I can rant on how much I miss them because none of them will read this.
I know that life gets in the way. But it really hurts my heart to think that all the time I invested in these people and they seem to have disappeared from my life. It makes me wonder how much value I must have in their world. I had thought that I would have placed higher in their worlds. I mean enough to warrant a call or text or an email now and then. Most of them still live in the same town as me but can’t be bothered to drop by or invite me out for coffee. It also hurts my heart to see them move on without me. Some of them making choices that I believe are damaging their faiths and that might have long term consequences.
I know that the last comment might seem judgemental. And its true that I have strong opinions on things. But that is how I see it. Although I would be willing to let most of that stuff go (for a while), if it meant that I could be a part of their worlds more often.
But Life Gets in the Way….
